In April of 2015, I wrote a blog entitled “Own Your Image (Brand) or Recreate It”, not realizing that it would minster to my life a year later…once again.
Just a few months ago I decided it was time to recreate my image, recreate my brand. I decided it was time for something new. I decided I wanted to invest in myself more. I decided that I was done hiding beneath the mask of uncertainty and insecurities. I decided I was ready to be me again. I decided it was time to put on my TURNING SIGNAL.
For those that know me well or better yet have ridden in the car with me, you will know that I have a problem with forgetting to turn off my TURNING SIGNAL. I remember the first time a few of my pledge brothers [Hey BG] rode in my car for the first time and they made fun of me the whole night in groupme talking about how I could not drive, simply because I would never turn off my TURNING SIGNAL… But now I am at a place in life where I am ready to take pride in leaving on that TURNING SIGNAL.
After experiencing rejection from peers, school, Corporate America, my man crush Monday, and even myself, I caught this nasty illness called insecurities. This nasty cold called self-pity. To sum up my issue, I was knocked down for being confident, I became a victim to the crab in the bucket mentality, and I couldn’t discern my friends from my enemies. I became broken. I even reached out for criticism, but it was better heard behind my back. I was afraid to be myself because it seemed to be offensive to be confident in your-self. Somehow being sure of myself made others feel uncomfortable. It became offensive to speak up and speak out when I felt like something was wrong or things needed changing. There is a saying that society tells women to love themselves but tells the confident woman to calm down. In my best Maya Angelou impression, “Does my sassiness offend you, why are you beset with gloom? Cause I walk like I got oil wells pumping in my living room…”
Have you ever notice that the most confident and courageous people are the first ones to take their own lives? That was me at a point in time, BUT GOD-
In result of being criticized so often, I became bitter and my bitterness led me to either be silent one day and petty the next. I began to get out of character, I was hurting, my pride was tried, and I was acting out hurt. When I spoke truth, when I stood for what’s right, I was ignored, or silence. To society, it was better to go with the flow…I tried to align, and I lost myself doing so…
Romans 12 2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
But after many weeping nights and pep talks in the mirror, I found myself…reaching back out to God. I never really forgot who God was, and still is today. But after experiencing so much hurt I thought to myself, if God really loved me why did he allow me to face the rejection I did…
Now I know, that every time I thought I was being Rejected from something, I was actually being Re-Directed to something better. God allowed me to reach my TURNING POINT, because there were times that I was headed on the wrong path. All he needed was for me to TURN to him. He allowed me to hit my road blocks and overcome them knowing that I wouldn’t be afraid to share my story and share my experience to uplift someone else. So today I ask that you join me on this journey as I pursue happiness, pursue Christ, pursue my purpose by seeking God first, and TURNING every negative of my life into a positive message to share.
Today I dare you, I CHALLENGE YOU, to make that TURNING POINT, and choose to seek after God. Whatever path it is that you are on today, consult God for change, for vision, and for purpose. It’s a decision that if you take serious, you won’t regret!
“Turning Negatives into Positives…”